Don't Miss It(open)

[Jasper Swift Kinney]

(no prob)

"don't worry. I'm getting better at it. I have the needed help and I will become a happier person" Jasper said shrugging. He had his family and his friends to support him.

He looked back at Jurrell frowning suspiciously. "I remember. She was nice...what about her?"

[Jurrell Hall Kennedy]

Jurrell felt the lump inb his throat stop his breathing. His breathing was now hoarse and the scene replayed in his vivid memory. Her scream shaking his ears making his left ear bleed slightly. "she she she" Jurrell bit the tip of his thumb the thing he had done when he was a kid instead of sucking his thumb. He couldn't get the words out without the tears leaking "she-e-e was k-k-killed"

[Jasper Swift Kinney]

Jasper frowned squirming as he felt the other man's pain. There were times when he hated his talent. The other obviously suffered and Jasper had to suffer with him. "I'm sorry" he whispered. "I can see now what you meant about losing love"

[Jurrell Hall Kennedy]

Jurrell saw the man squirming and wraithing with agony. Jurrell put the blocks back up hiding his soul in a crusty shell of lonliness. "Its worse though' He looked in to Jaspers eyes. "you saw there are times when I can't control myself where everything i left up to insitnct" He breathed in "I fight it off as hard as I can but it just makes it angry" He wrapped his arms around himself. "Thats when.... Thats when... Thats when" Jurrell couldn't get the rest out. It was to hurtful to hard to admit that he had killed his only freind just because he couldn't hold it in.

[Jasper Swift Kinney]

Jasper sighed when Jurrell controlled his pain but the words brought it back. Jasper's eyes widened in recognition. "You killed her...the one part you can't control" He said quietly. It was like his first year when he couldn't have friends because they'd all fight among themselves, unable to control their newborn anger

[Jurrell Hall Kennedy]

"vampires think they got it so hard" Jurrell said "you atleast have some control" "when you do it you have a purpose for it" Jurrell hugged himself again. He was absent of anyone else who would hug him. "when we do it the only purpose is someones elses revenge... Just chaos telling you to kill and kill and kill with no stopping and no meening" His fingers started clenching his skin so hard that now small openings cried aswell. "Its the worst pain imaginable" "when you feel the men you have killed grabbing you soul and pulling it out of your body and torutring it as if its your fault while the beast roams free".

[Jasper Swift Kinney]

"You forgot I'm an empath. I did feel that. I felt their pain when I was singing my teeth into their necks, when I was tearing their limbs from their bodies. Humans, vampires, werewolves....they all have feelings and they're all scared of pain and death" Jasper said cringing. Jurrell's open emotions were depressing but needed. The man needed to open up and heal. "It took me years to gain some control and it's still not perfect. I still slip sometimes" He looked down at Jurrell's hands wrinking his nose. "you'll bleed"

[Jurrell Hall Kennedy]

"blood is blood" "for every action there is an equal and oposite reaction" "for everytime i made a man bleed I feel i must bleed" Jurrel lreelased the grip on his arm. It hadn't bled but he wish it had. "jasper what did you ever find that was worth the toil" He flexed his fingers looking as the nail grew and fell with every movement. "what did you find worth that misery or worth the souls that you had rendered from there bodies?"

[Jasper Swift Kinney]

"You're right. Blood is blood and even though yours stinks it's not as bad as if you were a pure werewolf. And it's still tempting so please, be kind and don't torture me." Jasper sighed rubbing his forehead. "Jurrell, I didn't choose this. I didn't want to be a monster. I still don't want that. Of course I crave human blood. I crave blood. Period.This is what I am. But when I was doing it...when I was getting my victim, watching the look on their face when they'd see me and then when I was sinking my teeth in their throat. I could clearly feel everything they were feeling as if they were my own feelings. You know, that would satisfy my thirst for a few hours, maybe days. But their pain would eat me for weeks."

[Jurrell Hall Kennedy]

Jurrell listened and thought it was sad. He thought that there was finally a vampire who knew a little about what it was like to be a werwolf. A vampire teased by the unfairity of destinies dice. But he hadnt answered his question. "but tell me what did you find that made it worth it?" Jurrell needed the answer and hoped it wasn't the one he was thinking now. He hoped that atleast once in his life something could eb made simple.

[Jasper Swift Kinney]

"Worth what?" Jasper asked not exactly getting hte other's question. his emotions weren't helping either. Jasper tried to analyse them but that gave him no clue, only made him a little sadder so he curled up wrapping arms around his one knee, keeping the other leg outstretched.

[Jurrell Hall Kennedy]

"worth living" "worth going through the faces and memories worth continuing on to the next day" He looked to Jasper. He wished he had an answer. But he also wished it wasn't the one he was going to say. There was thing in this world he didn't have and it seemed to be everybodies reason for living.

[Jasper Swift Kinney]

"Oh that's simple. It's practically impossible for a vampire to commit a suicide" Jasper said laughing. Then he turned serious again. "But the truth was I figured I might make up for my sins a little. I gave up on human blood but I still have my strenght, knowledge and powers so maybe I will be able to make a good use of it. "

[Jurrell Hall Kennedy]

Jurrell let out a nervous laugh when Jasper did. It wasn't impossible for werwolves. "for every good deed I do I must sin in return" Jurrell said looking down. "if i leave the war millions die without there general all the towns that i have given courage too will live in feer" "If i don't come back I leave behind all my familly.. I leave with no way of protecting them" "how do you choose betweens millions and the familly thast you love?" He said looking to Jasper pleedingly.(where did you come up with Jasper he is soo cool)

[Jasper Swift Kinney]

"Simple." Jasper shrugged. "No matter what the family always comes first." He answered honestly. He never had doubts about it. Before it never mattered too much. James used to be his friend. He was important but the bond between them had never been strong enough to make them brothers. When Jasper had to choose between James and the Kinneys the choice was easy. "I've sinned so many times in my life now it's time fo r the good deeds"

(thanks He's a mix of the Twilight Jasper Hale and the character I made up in my mind a while ago. Aidan used to be a bit like him but now he's more open and happy. I chose for Jazz to be the complicated one )